I’m still here, in case you’re wondering. I’ve just been busy…with life per say. Not to say that being in this community isn’t having a life, but other things seem to outweigh all of my alone time.
Boyfriend for instance: It’s time for me to stop being selfish with my time and understand that a relationship requires two people putting forth effort. I actually do get excited to see him, not because it’s once a week, but because I get to spend time with him. It’s the little things that help us to grow. Because after two years of dealing with the crap, we’ve finally got it together. I’m proud that he’s proud enough of us to admit that it’s been an on & off again thing. No need to lie. However, 4 1/2 months seems like forever when you’ve been with them for forever. I, dare I say it, love the kid.
School: I’ve spent more time at school in the past two weeks than I have in the past four semesters. I feel so at home in my one little building and it brings me so much joy to do what I love to do. There’s nowhere else that I need to be. It’s a personal thing, I suppose.
Friends: My friends are all chemists…and one biologist. I know my place and I know where loyalties lie. I’ve learned that not everyone is there to see you succeed. Not everyone wants to see you happy. Not everyone can look you in the face and say that they’re happy that you’re happy, because in reality…they don’t want you happy. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: My boyfriend is MY boyfriend…our relationship is OUR relationship. Do NOT put your two sense in on something that you know nothing about. Anyway, the point is…it’s time to let go.
I’m learning. I’m growing. I’m taking the necessary steps to better my future. You’re either with me…or you’re not. It really is that simple.